Still gathering Info

Yesterday I sat down & opened up my Bible and I don't  normally just stop to read wherever I land on but I did.  I opened to pretty much the center of the Bible and started reading Psalm 117 & then 118 and it really just was perfect.  It says:

Psalm 117

1 Praise the Lord, all you nations;
    extol him, all you peoples.
2 For great is his love toward us,
    and the faithfulness of the Lord endures forever.

Praise the Lord.[a]

Psalm 118

1 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
    his love endures forever.

2 Let Israel say:
    “His love endures forever.”
3 Let the house of Aaron say:
    “His love endures forever.”
4 Let those who fear the Lord say:
    “His love endures forever.”

5 When hard pressed, I cried to the Lord;
    he brought me into a spacious place.
6 The Lord is with me; I will not be afraid.
    What can mere mortals do to me?
7 The Lord is with me; he is my helper.
    I look in triumph on my enemies.

8 It is better to take refuge in the Lord
    than to trust in humans.
9 It is better to take refuge in the Lord
    than to trust in princes.
10 All the nations surrounded me,
    but in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
11 They surrounded me on every side,
    but in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
12 They swarmed around me like bees,
    but they were consumed as quickly as burning thorns;
    in the name of the Lord I cut them down.
13 I was pushed back and about to fall,
    but the Lord helped me.
14 The Lord is my strength and my defense[b];
    he has become my salvation.

15 Shouts of joy and victory
    resound in the tents of the righteous:
“The Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!
16     The Lord’s right hand is lifted high;
    the Lord’s right hand has done mighty things!”
17 I will not die but live,
    and will proclaim what the Lord has done.
18 The Lord has chastened me severely,
    but he has not given me over to death.
19 Open for me the gates of the righteous;
    I will enter and give thanks to the Lord.
20 This is the gate of the Lord
    through which the righteous may enter.
21 I will give you thanks, for you answered me;
    you have become my salvation.

22 The stone the builders rejected
    has become the cornerstone;
23 the Lord has done this,
    and it is marvelous in our eyes.
24 The Lord has done it this very day;
    let us rejoice today and be glad.

25 Lord, save us!
    Lord, grant us success!

26 Blessed is he who comes in the name of the Lord.
    From the house of the Lord we bless you.[c]
27 The Lord is God,
    and he has made his light shine on us.
With boughs in hand, join in the festal procession
    up[d] to the horns of the altar.

28 You are my God, and I will praise you;
    you are my God, and I will exalt you.

29 Give thanks to the Lord, for he is good;
    his love endures forever

This is what my heart feels!  I will continue to praise & exalt God for I know he is good, his love is never ending.  And I know that he will take care of me and my family & do what is best for us.  I know that we have many battles to fight in order to win this war. Some, we may not win, but we have every intention to win the war!

Be sure to read the entire post because after I typed most of it, I got a phone call with some answers & a plan.

Here's what we have so far.  The tumor marker number went up again which is not what we want.  There are a few options that we could possibly take at this point.  One of them being surgery, which is rather likely at this point but really not sure how soon surgery can be done since my consultation appointment isn't until April 16th in Escanaba.  I am even looking, with help of family, to another doctor & location if I can get in sooner.  I was possibly going to be a part of a study in Ann Arbor but that got nixed today, at least for now, when they found out I am not post-menopausal yet.  So now the Oncologist is waiting for all the info he needs in order to give us our options.

I will admit that I am not completely at peace right now, not knowing all the info but I am not in panic mode either. I am mostly at peace and still seeking God's direction, and I will take that for now.  Perhaps this is God's way of steering us away from being a part of the study right now.  I don't exactly know but He does and I trust that He will keep guiding us.

I am excited that we've got friends coming to visit us tomorrow. Praying that despite the nasty weather, that they have a safe and not too long of a trip up here today.  I am supposed to be working on compiling stuff for getting our taxes finished & instead have had to make several calls & mediate arguing kids.  They are a little annoyed with it snowing again today, that their Spring break is coming to an end, and while it has been fun to be playing with each other all week, I think they may be getting on each other's nerves a little too, AND the biggest, they want a longer break because it went by too quickly.  I myself can't believe that the week is nearly done & has gone by so quickly.  It seems my to-do list keeps increasing rather than decreasing so I need to get a handle on that soon.

We Appreciate all the prayers & helpfulness of all of you!  Though this war is crappy, we truly are blessed to have the love & support & especially prayers of all of you.

UPDATE:  The oncologist just called and I am scheduled for a consultation on Tuesday in Green Bay to have a hysterectomy done.  The surgery could happen as soon as Wed the 9th but we won't know for sure until we have the consultation on Tuesday.  So we have to pack as if we are staying. Not sure of details for hospital stay or anything like that but it is nice that we have family in GB that we can stay with to help with cost of housing.  Looks like my mom is going to be on grandchildren duty. Pray for her strength. And be sure to wish her a Happy Birthday because the 9th is her birthday & the 10th is Sadie's.  Good thing that Sadie won't really know the difference if we celebrate it a little late if we need to.  Thankful that things are working out for timing of the surgery.  I'm asking for God's Supernatural guidance for the physician team and for no complications & His strength for me and recovery.  I trust you Lord!